I'm starting to freak out. As in, the reality of everything going on in our lives at this moment is setting in.
We have to sell the house.
We have to move.
We have to plan a wedding.
I have to start a new job in TWO weeks.
And worst of all, I have to say goodbye to my current job within two weeks.
Sigh.
It's harder than I thought. I told some of the higher-ups last week and the reactions were hard to deal with. Comforting to the fact that they would miss me and it's not like they were at all happy to see me leave. But sad to the fact that I left each meeting feeling like I was disappointing them. And I was.
I wasn't supposed to be leaving this job so soon. This is a company where people put up roots and just stay forever and ever. But I'm one of those. That just packs up and moves on.
It's hard.
I'm just hoping the next couple weeks speed up because this part of getting a new job is the PITS. The phrase 'this is the last time I will ______' keeps going through my head with each report, each project.
Sigh. It's just work, why is this so hard? I just need this chapter to close and the next to open. And soon.




